Journal Entry: Wed Jun 27, 2012, 1:49 AM
Just to begin, no this is not a journal about me leaving DA or anything like that. The title will become significant in a minute to what I'm really gonna mention. And one more thing. No matter what is said in this journal, it doesn't affect anything or any art form here on DA that I like. You see...for a long time I've been constantly thinking of whether I was interested in something as much as I was a long time ago. And now my thoughts and feelings on this matter are absolute. I'm not having any second thoughts, and when I move on it will be certain that I won't turn and look back. I'll stop beating around the bush and just get straight to it......I no longer have a love for anime. My mojo is gone, and it's not coming back. And I'm not even forcing it away either. I'm just....I'm just not into anime anymore.
Now before some of you guys start thinking if anything recently made me change my mind, let me cut in by saying this is not something I recently decided. For the past year and a half this is a thought that's come to me again and again. Even when I went to a con for a second time last year, I wasn't feeling any type of hype. I'm not quite sure what started this feeling, but it was something I couldn't ignore.
One thing I could make a claim at on the matter is that I wasn't spending as much time with it as I normally would. With the fact that I was knuckling down pretty hard for school while doing a production, I had no time really. I had a new goal to look forward to that would help better my academic future and possible dream. Then there was also time I put into my Theatre practices, so that eliminated more time from watching anime. So to nutshell it, time from my everyday duties could have been part of the reason I lost some mojo. Other than that, I'm seriously not sure how I started fading away from liking it (maybe I just started getting bored? I dunno) (And yes, I'm aware something's been repeated in this journal, so screw me).
So when this feeling lingered a bit, I soon thought, "I just don't know what to do." I then continued on with what I was already focused on in my life. And if anime happened to spark even a little bit, I'd take in what I could. Time passes by and like my 17-year-old pattern, I've left quite a good amount of anime unfinished (even one's I've waited an eternity for). So definitely this was a sign showing how uninterested I was starting to get. Then to put in another matter, half of the VA's I use to hear in animes aren't doing too much now. In addition, being an English Dub fanatic, I've sadly been getting disappointed of some of the newer ones coming out. I've watched anime in Japanese just as equally, but Dub was like my start of it all. To think, I started seeing all of this when I finally had time to watch anime. Oh! I guess these list as reasons too. I guess that's what happens when you keep writing and writing (I should do this more, XP).
So anyways, the final straw was this year, from the beginning of 2012 to the present. I went to my favorite con for the third time, and I felt nothing exciting anime-wise: cosplays, games, amv's, etc. A person even asked me how much I was into anime, and I wasn't even excited to talk about it, or go in great detail of which ones I liked. Then next was the time I decided to buy a manga to continue off of a series of manga that I started before. Even to this day, I still haven't started the doggone thing, along with two other manga from two other series I hadn't started yet. Then finally was the process of going and meeting my Ex-Favorite VA in anime; Luci Christian. I had a golden opportunity to take the time and money to go and finally meet her at a con......but I just let it go. And it didn't even bother me that I didn't try to go and meet her. She was sort of an important factor in this because back when I was a huge fan I told myself before I ever stop loving anime, I'd have to at least meet her. She was that great of a VA and an inspiration to me when it came to anime, and has always wow'd me with her awesome roles. Shoot, I could write a whole journal about her alone, but I digress. The fact that I wasn't even interested to meet her or listen to her work anymore was a big sign showing I had no interest in much anime.
So now we're here at present day with not a single thing changed from the past events. Even with the fact that I have more than 7 animes unfinished and discontinued, it doesn't bother me to the slightest. Anime has served me well throughout a great portion of my young adolescent life. It has shown me good times, great times, scary times, and "Exciting" times as well. And even though I'm moving on from it, there will always be a special place in my heart where my most cherished favorites reside; predominantly Azumanga Daioh, Inuyasha, and even Clannad. I guess there's no point in explaining the title now, lol. But with all that said, it's time I move on...for good. Anime.......it's been real.......it's been...fun.
NEXT TIME IN KURO-KUN'S JOURNAL
"I was already feeling it, and it wasn't even late."
"...What's going on?! What's happening?! I don't understand! This is weird!"
"I can't believe that almost happened!"
"So glad I decided to go."
Playing: Sonic Generations
Eating: Mac 'n Cheese
Drinking: Ginger Ale