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The Time of Farewell

Journal Entry: Wed Jun 27, 2012, 1:49 AM
Just to begin, no this is not a journal about me leaving DA or anything like that. The title will become significant in a minute to what I'm really gonna mention. And one more thing. No matter what is said in this journal, it doesn't affect anything or any art form here on DA that I like. You see...for a long time I've been constantly thinking of whether I was interested in something as much as I was a long time ago. And now my thoughts and feelings on this matter are absolute. I'm not having any second thoughts, and when I move on it will be certain that I won't turn and look back. I'll stop beating around the bush and just get straight to it......I no longer have a love for anime. My mojo is gone, and it's not coming back. And I'm not even forcing it away either. I'm just....I'm just not into anime anymore.

Now before some of you guys start thinking if anything recently made me change my mind, let me cut in by saying this is not something I recently decided. For the past year and a half this is a thought that's come to me again and again. Even when I went to a con for a second time last year, I wasn't feeling any type of hype. I'm not quite sure what started this feeling, but it was something I couldn't ignore.

One thing I could make a claim at on the matter is that I wasn't spending as much time with it as I normally would. With the fact that I was knuckling down pretty hard for school while doing a production, I had no time really. I had a new goal to look forward to that would help better my academic future and possible dream. Then there was also time I put into my Theatre practices, so that eliminated more time from watching anime. So to nutshell it, time from my everyday duties could have been part of the reason I lost some mojo. Other than that, I'm seriously not sure how I started fading away from liking it (maybe I just started getting bored? I dunno) (And yes, I'm aware something's been repeated in this journal, so screw me).

So when this feeling lingered a bit, I soon thought, "I just don't know what to do." I then continued on with what I was already focused on in my life. And if anime happened to spark even a little bit, I'd take in what I could. Time passes by and like my 17-year-old pattern, I've left quite a good amount of anime unfinished (even one's I've waited an eternity for). So definitely this was a sign showing how uninterested I was starting to get. Then to put in another matter, half of the VA's I use to hear in animes aren't doing too much now. In addition, being an English Dub fanatic, I've sadly been getting disappointed of some of the newer ones coming out. I've watched anime in Japanese just as equally, but Dub was like my start of it all. To think, I started seeing all of this when I finally had time to watch anime. Oh! I guess these list as reasons too. I guess that's what happens when you keep writing and writing (I should do this more, XP).

So anyways, the final straw was this year, from the beginning of 2012 to the present. I went to my favorite con for the third time, and I felt nothing exciting anime-wise: cosplays, games, amv's, etc. A person even asked me how much I was into anime, and I wasn't even excited to talk about it, or go in great detail of which ones I liked. Then next was the time I decided to buy a manga to continue off of a series of manga that I started before. Even to this day, I still haven't started the doggone thing, along with two other manga from two other series I hadn't started yet. Then finally was the process of going and meeting my Ex-Favorite VA in anime; Luci Christian. I had a golden opportunity to take the time and money to go and finally meet her at a con......but I just let it go. And it didn't even bother me that I didn't try to go and meet her. She was sort of an important factor in this because back when I was a huge fan I told myself before I ever stop loving anime, I'd have to at least meet her. She was that great of a VA and an inspiration to me when it came to anime, and has always wow'd me with her awesome roles. Shoot, I could write a whole journal about her alone, but I digress. The fact that I wasn't even interested to meet her or listen to her work anymore was a big sign showing I had no interest in much anime.

So now we're here at present day with not a single thing changed from the past events. Even with the fact that I have more than 7 animes unfinished and discontinued, it doesn't bother me to the slightest. Anime has served me well throughout a great portion of my young adolescent life. It has shown me good times, great times, scary times, and "Exciting" times as well. And even though I'm moving on from it, there will always be a special place in my heart where my most cherished favorites reside; predominantly Azumanga Daioh, Inuyasha, and even Clannad. I guess there's no point in explaining the title now, lol. But with all that said, it's time I move on...for good.  Anime.......it's been real.......it's been...fun.


NEXT TIME IN KURO-KUN'S JOURNAL
"I was already feeling it, and it wasn't even late."
"...What's going on?! What's happening?! I don't understand! This is weird!"
"I can't believe that almost happened!"
"So glad I decided to go."

  • Playing: Sonic Generations
  • Eating: Mac 'n Cheese
  • Drinking: Ginger Ale
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oOWaterOoODropletOo Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You know, people do grow up and tastes do change over the years, so it's no big deal that you've decided that you're done with anime. I know a few people who grew out of it. I kinda grew out of it too. When I was younger I thought it would be a brilliant goal to try and watch all the anime in the world... Pfft. You can easily guess it was a naive dream of mine. Now I've only committed myself to watching less than a handful of shows every once in a while. I'm just way too busy, plus I prefer reading, so a majority of what's on the screen is something I've already read.

I will say that it's cool that Luci Christian is one of your ex-fave VA. She's one of my favorites. Loved her ever since Full Metal Panic, which is one of my all time favorite animes. Ever. :iconhappyhappyplz:
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kuroiStar Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2012
All the anime in the world? That's a tough challenge right there, lol. Sometimes I've come to liking the manga of anime more for either the fact that there's information that anime didn't reveal, or because the manga tells the story better. As to Luci Christian, Azumanga Daioh is where she rocked my world. She was just so funny and energetic with her roles.
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oOWaterOoODropletOo Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, that dream was back when anime was first becoming popular over here and we only had a few to look at... not the monstrosity now where anime is being hauled over here every season. Azumanga Daioh was great - definitely a classic starter anime. Yeah, manga is better, and canon too, unlike the anime where there's artistic leeway. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but not necessarily a good thing either.
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rifftiff Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha. You made it sound like you were breaking up with your girlfriend or something! Well, welcome to the club, old boy!

Meh. I grew out of anime too, once I was busy with other things like theatre, work etc. Sometimes I hit a little wave of wanting to watch something, usually when I'm bored, but it goes away again. I could careless about anything fandom related. I don't really like or dislike it, it's just like any other show for me.
But one thing has changed: I can't stand English dubs anymore for some reason. I think the actors are horrible now. DX
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kuroiStar Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012
Lol, it does sort of sound like a break-up, doesn't it. Well to be fair, anime sort of had that kind of bond. There would be the special dates of marathons, the alone time in my room (No Hentai, calm down XP), and staying up all night together. And everything was special about it. Soon the both of us had changed and nothing was the same, so we had to go our separate ways, xD. So yes, it was very much like a relationship. Besides, I have other interests to fall on now like DA (thinking about it, I've been seeing DA while having a thing with anime, so would that make me a cheater? XD, nah this type could be polygamous, right)?! Okay, I'm sorry. It's past 5am and my mind is on random run mode. I'll just end this saying it was a great run indeed with anime.
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rifftiff Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha. That was an epic comparison. XD Well at least it was a clean breakup. It would suck if it was something messy.
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kuroiStar Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2012
Great, now you're making me think of possible arguments anime and I would have if it was one of those kind of harsh break-ups, xD. I could imagine one part of an argument something like....

Anime: What does Deviantart have that I don't have?
Len:...Interaction.
Anime: Have I not been interactive enough with you?! DO YOU REALLY F**KING MEAN THAT?!
Len: I DIDN'T STUTTER!

Lol, just an example.
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rifftiff Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HAHA. That's so cute. You fight like an old married couple... who broke up.
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kuroiStar Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2012
Great, so now we're old (at least that's true on anime's end, xD).
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NuciComs Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ehh, people's interests change as they grow. That's why it's impossible to really say something is "immature" and what not. But I generally think people care too much about what other people think, lol. I myself am guilty of that at times, but I've been getting over it.

It's sad when things you used to love no longer hold appeal, but that's life. I hope you find other things that keep you happy and entertained. I've found a lot of things don't interest me much, but then it always comes back around at different times. XD
With me, there's things I don't really like in general anymore, but sometimes one example of it interests me still. I'm never closed off to something as a whole, so I don't really understand how it goes to *totally* lose interest in something. But regardless, as said, as long as you're content in the end, that's what should matter to you. Good luck with the theater stuff, I'm sure the money once spent on cons can go toward that.
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